Watching: rocko's modern life
Playing: dota 2
my feelings cannot be summed up better than what I said last year, so here it is again
Every once in a while, I’ll get a private message of some kind in one of my gallery’s inboxes or on Skype. It’s not like the usual stuff, that being the sort like asking for commissions, wanting to roleplay(regular or otherwise), telling me the last picture or I am hot, or even
and NOTHING ELSE
No, the message would simply be something along the lines of like…
'Hi, Lamia! You don't know me or anything, but I'd just like to say I really enjoyed that last picture and whatever else you might do. I hope you do more in the future!' On occasion there's a little more added about some details they like about certain pictures.
They aren’t demanding, seem understanding, and take the time to give a sort of close and personal cheering on to an artist they happen to like, being satisfied or joyed or whatever from how they were entertained. It’s just a lengthy comment with detail.
But it can seem like more than that when I receive one. Being an artist(other artists reading this will probably relate) can feel like a thankless job, producing art of whatever medium you might use for others to partake, without regard to how mentally demanding it can be. At times, I get the feeling I’m merely being used as just an entertainment machine, periodically spitting out whatever randomly-generated nonsense that the current ones watching me might (or might not) enjoy; no person behind the veil or the pen, just a robot that does what it’s told and what it’s expected to do, among all the others of varying quality and content.
It’s hard mental work being an artist, whether taking part of a kind of fandom or not, and the way that I express myself, wanting to make things for others to enjoy, can build a lot of pressures from within and from the outside, whether from individuals or the whole of the watchful and/or target audience.
However, this isn’t about my personal issues; when I’ve received some of these messages, I can feel that twingey feeling down there. You know, in my chest, not that other place. They remind me that what I do can really affect and matter to some. It can make my struggles all feel worthwhile.
So, I suppose what I’m saying here is that I think it should be more common. Take a minute, support your favorite artists. Leave a kind word. Buy them their next meal. Share their art with others. Express your desire to see more of their vision. Show them how much you care — because sometimes, it can make all the difference.
For those of you that have left kind words: I wish I could say thank you enough. You all keep me going sometimes, cheering up my day. Thank you.
For those of you that have donated(which I’ve spent mostly on food): It’s reassuring that there can be those that want to offer their money for merely telling the artist to continue to be themselves in return. It’s greatly appreciated.
For those of you that have shared: My goal as an artist is to entertain, and the more that see, the more I feel successful at doing what I do. Asking to share my work is the most I can ask of whoever watches me, and I thank you all if you do so.
I want everyone to have a good Generic December Observance, and I hope you will continue to enjoy what I, and other artists, have to share in the future.
here's hoping I can keep delivering to you guys, have a good one and drink a pepsi on me